My2Sense 11/7/17

Bracing for Impact… I know how that feels.  To squeeze your body ever so tightly from a forgotten memory.   Just watching Tv can be exhausting if the mind wonders.  Expecting the worse, hearing negative, feeling the pain of what could be if.  The possibilities of what was and now we are trying to figure…

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Dear Mom Finale

Afraid for my life, afraid to dream, breathe or be myself the need to have someone that won’t judge you was important.  Marie was trusted with announcing to the world if something happened to me because I was living for something outside myself.  Fear had taken over my life 3 times in my life that…

Dear Mom Pt 4

(This was Jamar’s favorite song he listened to) Around my 40th birthday, my best friend and I came up with two words to help us focus on our own lives positively at one of the lowest point in my life so far. Our friendship had to be in secret (sound familiar) until I could find…

By the skin of my…Pt 3

Roger (Jaye’s brother), called our other cousins to get the funeral arrangements for our Uncle George. We wanted flowers sent to the home or burial site. But they went back to some money left for the family inheritance by our grandmother.  No one has ever seen or verified that any will existed, but they are…

Dear Mom Pt 3

Including yourself means I’m responsible for all actions, thoughts, and feelings. It wasn’t easy. Expectation still habitually strikes without notice. Testing things on me first was a hard concept to grasp. Finding gratitude in the every day while remaining cool as possible is one thing but making a point to understand how each thing is…

Dear Mom Pt2

I now understand how hard it is being a woman free of missteps, pain, or loss as we face this harsh world daily. Those short moments of peace you spoke of can extend longer than special occasions or holidays. It can be there even when you’re stuck with those that control life itself. The lesson…

By the skin of my…Pt2

Shaking my head literally brought me out of the daydream back to awful moments when I was 10 or 12. I started the text with the major changes in my life since we last saw each other. After finishing my intro, I asked bluntly, “Is he dead? We heard he died in his sleep if…

By the skin of my…Pt1

Owning It All…Taking Responsibility      (Where should I, up there?   On-stage, wow in front of everyone.  How long do I have to do this?  Fine, until we’re done.  If I must explain something, I’ll point that out but I’m going to start somewhere in my sophomore year.  I’ll get around to the rest, it will…

Dear Mom Pt 1

Dear Mom; This project kept being pushed to the back burner because it took time for me to stop punishing myself for being like you in many ways. It’s hard emotionally, mentally, and physically for any human that feels disconnected from its source. We all get our survival skills from somewhere, even if we don’t…

She

  Is…. A growing live being that loves Giving strength by example Ideas infinite in creation Completely Whole… The gift, a soul.   Stands… As expression Yes feel the extremes Hoping she sees the purity She owns… May her journey continue to evolve   Falls… May vary yet if determined Mountains bow as she decides…